#17 I'm Stuck Here With A Ghost of What We Used to Be

My sister moved back home two days ago. It's been going pretty well and it was a lot of fun catching up with her again. However, it's really awkward because her boyfriend is living with us. The thing is, her boyfriend got laid off and now he's usually stuck at home with my dad when my sister is at work and I'm at school.
It's just odd because...it is. I can't explain it really, but there's just this awkward atmosphere. Well, it's more like he has to constantly put up a good front because my dad's there.

It's nice having 3/4 of the family at home and getting along well. It would be better if my mom was home and not arguing with my dad...but that's not possible because they MUST argue. It's like their 2nd instinct. Their first instinct is to complain.

My sister told me how lucky I was to have her there. She said that if she wasn't there, I would be living in the basement with my dad. The basement is filled with cigarette stench and it's not that clean. She also told me how I'd have to put up with my mom's nagging and I'd have to take care of my mom whenever she went crazy.

I wonder how my family got to this. The first time my father started to complain/brainwash me into thinking my mother was a bad person was way back when I was in elementary school. I think around 1st grade. He would keep imposing a bad image of my mom into me until I got slapped into my senses by my sister. I'll always be grateful to her for helping me so much...even if she acts like a nagging mother to me. Haha.

Alright, let's get onto school.
My little group is slowly falling apart more and more. So, I'm trying to pick a date where I can bring together everyone and just have a nice relaxing wii party. :) Nothing brings together a group of teenagers better than games and food.
I wish it was like in the beginning of the year...we would all sit around and play chinese poker and hang out whenever we could. But everyone is paired into a couple now and it's just breaking.

Elementary school seems like a great place to be right now. Boys had cooties and your innocent mind wasn't corrupted by R rated movies. Your favorite bedtime stories could be read over and over and you wouldn't get bored by it. Coloring out of the lines annoyed you, but it was still your masterpiece. You would feel so rich having a dollar bill and you were forgiven if you broke expensive things...or at least got away with a scolding. Yeah, but we're growing up way too fast...and time is slipping us by.

But as long as I carry my childhood with me, I'll always be a kid at heart. So, yeah, I'm stuck here with all the memories of what we (everyone in my life) were...before all the chaos. :)

That's it for today...I think. Haha.
Comment? Or not.

Love,
Jay