#9

Wow, two posts in one day!

Sorry if I'm boring you people out with my long posts (not like anyone's actually reading, but okay). I'm just really happy right now because I had a great day without even spending money! Haha, you gotta spend money to even have fun these days.
I invited three of my guy friends over today and they stayed for dinner. It was a lot of fun. We played cards and youtubed and watched TV. We even tried to do the Hoedown Throwdown by Miley Cyrus just for laughs. That dance is hilarious and also really fun.

My first guy friend arrived at my house while I was showering. There wasn't anyone home, so I had to wrap a towel around myself and run to the door. Haha, I called him and I told him that he's not allowed to open the door until I give him the O.K. So I hurried to unlock the door and then I ran back to the bathroom and he came in. He's the same smoker guy from my previous entry.
Then the second guy came over. He's super skinny and tall. He used to be afraid of giving hugs, but after meeting me, he likes hugs. :). Haha, I just bragged a little, but I'm proud that I changed someone in a positive way. Well, to me that's positive.
My third friend came right after the second guy. He changed so much. I noticed things that I haven't noticed about him. His shoulders became broader and his facial structure matured. Haha, it was a pleasant change.

Unconciously, I kissed my second friend on the cheek. -.-;
As open as I am to everyone, I don't usually kiss my guy friends on the cheek. But he was so close to me and I guess my instinct side kicked into me. 'Cause I notice that if people's face gets close to my face, I'll feel attracted to do something to them...usually involving a kiss. That made me sound like a slut.
Anyways, I wanted to make up for the awkwardness by kissing my other two guys friends on the cheeks, but we were too into youtube...so I just left it as that.

THEN...came dinner! Haha, the first 15 minutes was torture because none of us could eat properly. We were all too busy laughing at random things. At one point, my first friend laughed so hard that he spit his food out. Haha, that gave us all a good laugh. :)

After they left, I talked to the guy I was interested in online. He asked me why he doesn't cry. He hasn't cried for over a year. I'm pretty sure he was expecting my answer to be like, "It's because you're so cold that you forgot how to cry" or some cliche crap that everyone else gives him. But I told him it was probably because he was afraid to feel strong emotions again. I'm sure it's because of that. Even if he was close to crying, some part of him probably told him not to cry because it's seen as dangerous. As of now, he's like a walking time-bomb...when he cries, he's gonna cry hard.
I think he needs someone to talk to, and if he ever feels like opening up...I'll be there. I don't want to be one of those people who run out of things to say to him and just leave him on his own. I want to be there for him even if he hardly knows me.

:) That's all for now. Comment? or not.