# 13 I Wanna Be Included In Your Conversation

I should be sleeping right now. But I can't fall asleep.

School started two days ago, and already I want another break. I used to hang out in a group...well, to be a little blunt, I kind of put the group together. But now, I'm just drifting far away. At first it was just me leaving them to catch up with the guy I'm interested in. They said they understood and it was okay. However, when I was with them, they treated me as if I wasn't there. They walk pass me, hardly acknowledging I'm there anymore. I thought they said it was okay.

I'm growing sick of sitting in on a train ride and having nothing to say about their conversations because I can't find a place in it. It was okay being a loner at first, but this loner is turning lonely.

These are the small things that make me want to transfer to my zoned school which is less than 10 minutes from house rather than the treacherous commute to my current school. I've thought about it so many times but I'm sure this whole thing will blow over...I hope. Hopefully it'll end without anyone getting hurt.
This is such a childish topic...but it's still something that's on my mind.

All I need is one person in my school to talk to and hang out with. I don't need a huge group. Just one person is enough. But I have none. My school is small, so everyone knows each other and everyone is already in a group of their own...loners are just there. Loners don't mind being alone. But I kind of do.

I wish they would make an effort to talk to me. I tried, but it doesn't work if only one side is making the effort. Both sides have to work toward it, but it's not working so far.

Alright, I'm getting a bit sleepy. Might as well end it here.
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

Thanks for reading. :)