#43 That Part of Me Left Yesterday

I broke up with him.

Sometimes, I wish I didn't...but I know it's that withdrawal shit you go through after something big. After a few weeks, I know that feeling will be gone.

When I told my sister about our break up, she said, "Good. You always settle for less when you could go for more." Always...she said. So this means that she felt this way about my past relationships too.

As I'm typing this, his ex before me is probably reading this. Yes, he decided to show his ex my blog. I feel like I'm a fucking TV show or a book that's picked up by random teenagers to read for their own entertainment. I should feel flattered that someone finds this interesting enough to share it with their friend(s), but I don't.

Oh yeah, he told me that his ex and her boyfriend broke up on the same day we did. Maybe this means something? Oh boy, I hope this does. That'd be rather cute and surreal.

Ah, Whatever. I shouldn't care anymore. I still do. But I'll get over it. I'm going to continue writing as if his ex or him aren't reading this. I must say, I'm doing rather well. =)

My friend and I enrolled in an Intro Into Psychology course offered to students at my grade. Today was my first class, and I was really nervous and excited. I thumbed through half of my psychology textbook already. It helps me understand myself and others better and all this critical thinking is very interesting.

This place is the only place I will let myself loose - aside from individualization moments. Yeah, this place is my own therapist.

Hmmm, aside from that. I haven't been eating much or anything at all. Nor have I been getting any sleep at all. I do remember my dreams when I sleep though.

This past week, I think I only slept a total of 15 hours in 5 days. Some people probably sleep less and sleep some in class - but I'm so alert even when the topic is boring. I don't even sleep on the train. When I get my sleep, I dream about the most bizarre situations, but I don't remember them now. I just know they were strange.

I didn't eat much of anything, except snacking on a banana or two. Today, however, I ate a fair amount. Enough to be called a healthy meal at least. My friend and I walked around Times Square after class because we have nothing better to do. So we snacked on some peanuts, chocolate and we even bought breakfast before class - although we didn't finish it.
So, no worries...I'm still getting some form of nutrition in me.

I'm running out of things to say. My life is boring.

To be continued...Lol, get it? Like a TV show?
......yeah.

Love,
Jay