#19 I Wish I Can Unzip My Skin, Take It Off, Just to Take a Walk

I'm happy that I influenced other people to start a blog and write their feelings out. Now, I notice that more and more people are doing such things. I also realize how childish my so-called problems are as I read other people's blogs and see how similar they are to mine. So in today's blog, I'm just going to talk about life.

Sometimes, I wish I can take a break from life. I'm sure everyone felt like this before or will come across a feeling like mine. However, after I make that wish, I take it back immediately because I know that there are more people that deal with a harder, tougher life.

I was walking to the train station with my friend and he had his money out. An old lady asked him to spare a dollar, and since he's filthy rich, he gave a dollar to him. After we left, I said aloud, "That's why you put your money away in Harlem!" But as we walked down the stairs, I realized that it isn't really her fault that she asks for money. It must be an impulse for her because of the environment she lives in and the experience she deals with. I would probably do the same if I was put in her shoes.

However, I feel that adults should put charge in their life. I understand that if they're homeless, it would hard for them to get any work and no work means no money. Everything involves the need for money nowadays. Sometimes I truly feel bad for some homeless people and just feel like buying a bag of grocery and dropping it off. I'm sure they'll feel grateful, but I want them to feel motivated to attempt to make their life better. Usually they just take advantage of the kindness though.

I think the only time I take a break from life is when I sleep.
I heard that you dream every single day even if you don't remember most of them. Supposedly, your dreams are just channels from a parallel universe. This is just a theory, but it's believable and I like that idea. It's like a vacation for me...except for my nightmares. Those are just...hell.
I guess nightmares just proved me wrong. So you can't even take a break when you sleep.

As much as I don't want to grow up, I want to grow up at the same time. I can take the easy road in life because I have the option, but I choose not to. Because when I'm 60, I can look back on this and laugh at God and say proudly that I put up with everything he threw at me and still took the harder path. :) That's one of the 7 Sins...pride. Haha. Oh well.

Thanks for reading if you are.
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Love,
Jay