#6

I read all my entries and I annoy myself reading it. I complain so much...but who else am I supposed to complain to if I don't let it out here? Even though no one reads this, I feel kind of safe here. Safe's not the right word...more like...at home? I don't know.

My friends constantly tell me about how mature I am. I appreciate they think of my that way, but if I was so mature, I would know how to handle my emotions more. I just kind of think they're kind of stupid. High school drama really isn't anything big; it's just the people who blow the whole situation out of proportion. I'll admit, I thought the smallest things were pretty big sometimes, but whatever.

My friend got mad at me after I confronted her about her trying weed. I just wanted to know if she liked it, but I kind of understand why she got mad. She doesn't like it when someone is so concerned about her - like a mother...and I often give off a motherly vibe. I wasn't mad at her or anything; actually, I understood her. 'Cause at some point in my life, I was about to try to smoke too. Well, not weed, just cigarettes. Good thing I didn't :) above the influence. Haha.

Hmmm...what else to say?
Oh right. My mother wants me to go back to Taiwan for my summer break. I really don't want to because I want to finish all my community service hours. She's a sad, but I think she understands. I hope.

I just found out though online chats with my "big sister" that she has mixed feelings for the guy I got interested in. I put quotes on "big sister" because she's from school. Our school has the Big Sibling program and she happens to be my big sister when I first enrolled. I guess this means for me to move on. I always knew that the closest I could be with him is just good friends. Whatever. Like I said in the previous entry, small crush - they come and go.

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