#5

I finally talked to this guy today...but it was only online. He has a really cynical sense of humour and is very sarcastic. However, I think I annoyed him in a way :(. Oh well, it's a start. We all have to start somewhere.
He views girls as immature and I agree. Haha, I know I can be immature at times...especially when dealing with relationships. I can't help it. It's like one of the things that I can't help but be stupid in.
I hate to say I have a crush on him, but maybe I do. I really hope I don't though. I don't think I'm ready for a relationship and facing the rejection that I'm going to receive from him. So I'm just never going to confess. It's just a small crush, I'm sure it'll go away in no time.

I also found out today that my friend tried to smoke weed. She was influenced by my other friend. I'm really disappointed in both of them, but there's nothing I can do...only talk and talk.

I came to the conclusion a long time ago that talk doesn't really do anything...it's willpower. You can't change just by saying you want to change, you have to have the will to do so.

Well, that's all for today.